I want to apologize for my disappearance and incompletion of ArisED. A LOT has happened. I thought things were going to be okay...

Ten months after mom passed away, my older sister and her family came to live with us. Personally, I did not agree (her boyfriend, I do not like) but I did not want my nieces on the street. I feel they have taken advantage of our space and our kindness.

About six months after letting them home, my dad and my grandpa died within a week of each other. I was not allowed to grieve the way I wanted to because I was not as close to the former (dad) as the rest and I had to support them.

And in supporting them, I've lost my financial stability and my peace of mind. I've even had to sell my electronics (including my tablets so I can't finish) to get by, now. I'm doing overtime at work and it's still not enough.

My 'house guests' aren't contributing but they have children.

I'm in the red in every aspect of my financial life and I've called every resource in my state. I've been rejected because of the two able-bodied people staying with me and my twin sister has been hospitalized due to the whole situation.

And my bank account got scammed and compromised, so my job has not paid me.

I am lost. I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no one, now.

I'm trying to scrape up ANYTHING more to help the situation. I set up PayPal (same user), CashApp... I am looking for ANY help at this point. I need emotional support right now because I am sick on top of this and off work until Friday.

I love you all. I wish I didn't leave. I wish I didn't let them in. I'm lowkey freaking out.

Arise and Be;

DarkenedSparrow

I stopped drawing when my mom was diagnosed with Squamous Cell Carcinoma. She fought so hard, and when she had no more strength, her body released her spirit. She left this world at 5:00pm in Arizona's time. She was a beautiful human being, and she was one of the bravest people I had ever known. She was fun, forthright and hilarious.

She always took care of herself. She brought a smile to everyone. Everyone at my job knew who she was. And even when things looked bleak, she smiled. One of the last things she said was to bring a smile.

I will bring a smile. :)

Thank you for twenty-six years of love, safety and affection, Mom. We will be okay. I am glad that you were my mom. You always will be. And you were a warrior until the end.

Baby Doll Desiree Riffle -- mom -- I love you. You deserve to sleep, now. Get some rest, okay?